Life can be tricky, and sometimes it can be difficult to navigate. But, it is important to remember how strong you are and how to keep going when life throws a curve ball at you. Some curve balls can be exciting. Some however, can be hard. I have had my fair share of curve balls thrown at me over the years. I wish I could say that I handle each curve ball with grace and dignity, but unfortunately I am human and act on my emotions.
Last week felt like curve ball after curve ball was being thrown at me. My emotions were all over the place. I have been on a health journey since December and I have lost about 30 lbs since. I am trying to keep my heart and liver as healthy as possible for as long as I can. I want to be here for a long time! I had my 6 month cardiology appointment in early July. My cardiologist was elated to hear about my progress. She suggested that I have a cardiac stress test done and see how much my function had improved. We all were expecting great improvement!
We scheduled the test for mid-July. During the test, I felt like I was rocking it! I was on my little bike just pushing my legs as fast as I could go! I just kept praying, asking Jesus to give me strength! I wanted to “ace” this test! I felt like Wonder Woman when I was done!
After waiting two weeks I finally got the results of my stress test. They weren’t the results we were all hoping for. Somehow my heart function went down, which I find crazy because my body feels so strong! My cardiologist assured me that everything was fine, this just wasn’t what we were hoping for. She told me to continue exercising and eating healthy. I had a flair up with my anxiety and depression because of the results. I felt like what was the point of making these healthy changes? Obviously it wasn’t working. I haven’t felt like exercising since I got to results on Tuesday. I spent much of the week on the couch watching Netflix.
After spending the week wallowing in self pity, I was reminded during my quiet time last Friday of how far I have come. I have overcome a lot adversity in my life. God reminded me that, while these weren’t the results I was hoping for, this is a part of my story. I need to own it and find a way to grow from it. I have come a long way since December and I should be proud of that! I am proud of my hard work! This one test doesn’t define me. I am physically doing things I never though I’d be able to do. One of my amazing Zipper Sister’s gave me a much needed pep-talk. She told me that had I not been making these healthy changes, my results could have been much worse! God knew that I needed to hear that encouragement from her.
My point of this is, yes, life throws you curve balls. But it is up to US how we handle them. You could keep listening to the voices that tell you this curve ball will cripple you and there will be no way to ever recover from it. Or, you can choose to listen to the voice of truth, to God’s voice. The one that tells you to get back up and keep swinging! Because, when God is behind you, you can do anything!
So, when you feel like you can’t take anymore, or you aren’t strong enough….just give the bat to Jesus. Jesus will help you fight your battles for you, you just have to be willing to let him swing. So that’s what I’m doing, i’m handing it off to Jesus. And when the curve balls of life come, I’ll let him swing for me and knock that ball out of the park!
Verses to remember:
“For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory.” Deut. 20:4
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” John 10:10
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9